I used my one phone call to dedicate a song to you on the radio.

Time check

2012-01-24T21:41:00.002+08:00

11pm
lying on bed dreaming

12am
listening to music

1am
check phone

2am
drinks

3am
draft

2.45pm
heading out

4pm
aunt's house

7.30pm
leaving

8.13pm
home

08.30pm
pirates of the Caribbean

08:45pm
check phone

9.54pm
check phone

Void?

2012-01-24T21:27:00.003+08:00

Is it just me...?
No matter how alone we think we are.
We never will be alone.
We find means and ways to fill in the void : Reading, eating baking....
You name it, we do it.

Casey hope you are reading this.
Been long since we exchange a conversation.
I hope you come up soon.
Wishing you a Happy Dragon year, you to be healthier, happier and wealthier.

YEAR OF DRAGON

2012-01-23T00:18:00.002+08:00

Wish these moment last forever!

Strawberry lemonade

2012-01-18T20:13:00.000+08:00

Most times, it’s just a lot easier not to let the world know what’s wrong.
» Chuck Palahniuk

When in doubt, listen to The bloody beetroots

2012-01-16T16:51:00.000+08:00

Destruction

2012-01-15T13:22:00.002+08:00

Bringing destruction to own self never felt so....good.
Sometimes, something feels so wrong can make you feel so right.

Let's buy happiness

2012-01-13T23:11:00.003+08:00

Friday the 13th

1) Relationship takes preeminence over friendships.
2) I am hooked on to snow storm
3) I need some candy
4) I look terrible
5) 29 days till vip expire
6) Head to town on a friday like this
7) Best snow storm hit for today : 88
8) I'll always be fine
9) She sees sorrow in my eyes
10) I like staying home
11) I'm ready to lose you.
12) I'm not ready to lose you.
13) I'm fine.

Concrete heart

2012-01-13T10:30:00.002+08:00

I wish you will feel better soon, cass.
How i hate distance
or else i'll give you a long bear hug and shoulders for you to cry on.

Wild wilted roses

2012-01-13T03:24:00.001+08:00

03:01am

It's dark and quiet.
I wonder what everyone else is doing right now.
I wonder if they are eating something yummy.
I wonder if they are all tucked in cozily in bed.
I wonder if they know things are happening outside right now.

Temptation

2012-01-11T23:37:00.001+08:00

Edited this draft thrice rofl.
Really no idea what i wanted to blog
But i just wanted to blog.

Sometimes, i like how a bad day became a good day.
Sometimes, i like how a good conversation cheers you up.
Sometimes, i like how we fuck around exploring the places.
Sometimes, i like how a letter made my day.
Sometimes, i like sometimes....

far a way

2012-01-10T20:34:00.003+08:00

All i want to do now is :
Indulge in all the yummy food
curling up into a bed in your arms
more eating
reading more good books
listening to everything you have to say
spend every fucking minute i have with you.

Is that very hard.....?

Whenever wherever

2012-01-09T18:41:00.001+08:00

I miss you.

angsty bunny

2012-01-07T23:20:00.004+08:00

I swear,
you
are
one
mother
fucking
stupid
bitch.

I wish you know how to treasure shit
instead of posting rubbish on your wall.
why are these fucktards even alive?????
Best part : Screwing other people lives

Things to be happy about : J got my letter after more than a week!!!!!!
So i should feel secure when i get my letter send to Cass.

Oh glory

2012-01-07T14:35:00.002+08:00

Your Journal are all filled with complaints.
Mostly about how you hate high schools.
And nostalgic craps about better days.

There isn't much to live for, is there?

Lover's spat

2012-01-06T20:40:00.002+08:00

You wish.

That, you are able to stop at places you loved.
Eat and do whatever you desire.
And all the sad, confused layer part of yourself peels away.
Just like onion skin till the real you emerged out.

Getting around

2012-01-05T19:11:00.002+08:00

It's amazing how someone can make you feel.
Happy > sad > angsty > lost.
And take up a little space in your heart.
Today i felt nothing but peace and happy.
Thanks for the day, kitty kat :3
I love you now, and as long as maybe.
I'll never forget how you make me feel.
And the things you do for me, i am more than glad to have you in my life.

Things that make no sense

2012-01-05T10:14:00.002+08:00

Ah, comforting.
Stay longer.

Hustle and bustle

2012-01-04T12:38:00.000+08:00

Pretty much my daily routine : Sleeping late and waking up early.
Took me quite some time to contemplate what i wanted to write.
I guess, its true that "A friend in need, is a friend indeed"
To be honest, the company i had from Cassandra came at the right time.
Talking to each other via facebook message, habbo mail whatever you name it.
I really like talking about all kinds of stuff to you, cass.
Thank you for being in my life, xo.

FUCKERY

2012-01-04T01:11:00.006+08:00

If you followed me on twitter, you would probably know.....
Yeah, feeling like shit.
Apparently there are new ones but i'm too lazy to print screen them.
Shall do it when i'm better.
Swear i never felt like this before.....

Lets try to buy happiness

2012-01-03T19:58:00.002+08:00

i dont know what you want from me
lol
having fun arent you?

Misfits.

2012-01-02T19:30:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, i just feel like staying in my bed with the drapes closed.
2012 is officially just another passing day for me.
There is no brighter tomorrow.
We are all accustomed to a certain degree of misery.
Living in a life full of broken promises.

Pursuit of happiness

2012-01-01T02:23:00.003+08:00

Happy new year, Happy 2012 to everyone!

Still the same cliche message to all : Happiness, blessed, healthy and loved.
Not gonna make new year resolution because it doesn't work on me :P
Over at cheesecake's place, having a sleepover.
Feels kind of different now, more blissful and enjoyable. No doubt


"You don't know what you got till it's gone"

THERE IS NO ANTIDOTE

2011-12-29T17:19:00.002+08:00

1)Cleared almost half of my facebook friends.
2)Swedish House Mafia vs. Knife Party - Antidote (On replay)
3)still cant get over certain things
4 Amazing how some minor shit get you down
5) There is no antidote

Unlike the others

2011-12-28T09:48:00.002+08:00

In that harbor of a room
you'll find your anchor soon
in the parting of our ways
may it never happen
any way

Out of all their songs, i chose this.
Updated my music player.
Feeling nostalgic

WISH U WERE HERE

2011-12-27T19:41:00.003+08:00

Some things are so much appreciated from a distance.
Some things are so much better when lost.
Because when we got it, it turns to dust in our own hands.

An awful lot has changed and perhaps not all of it is for the better.

Had the best of the best lunch today xxx

ONE MORE TIME

2011-12-25T22:49:00.003+08:00

SOME THINGS THAT MADE ME HAPPY TODAY AND YESTERDAY


I have a sweater for christmas!!!!!
I have mafia and house husband as my whores!!!!!
I have baby gurl and cheesecake!!!!!
I have qt pie!!!!!
I have pen pals!!!!!!
I have my bun neatly tied up!!!!
I have everything.
(ok maybe not everything)
I CAN DIE HAPPY!!!!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS

2011-12-25T19:17:00.003+08:00

Wish times like these last forever.
On a cold Christmas day like this, with endless heart warming texts, yummy candies and new sweaters to be snuggled in. My life is now complete. Hahahahaha.

Merry Christmas! Tis season to be jolly ;)

2 more days to christmas

2011-12-23T04:38:00.002+08:00

Mistake of the Day : Talking to the wrong person.
(Worse of all : Mistook him as a her)
(Luckily facebook only.)
(Malu siah)

Goldfish crackers

2011-12-22T21:00:00.002+08:00

tête-à-tête

J

2011-12-20T22:40:00.000+08:00

December has been cold.
December has been a stay-home most of the time for me.
December allowed me to have another pen-pal added to my collection.
December has stripped me to just 2 dollars for the weeks.
December has been a funny one.
December made me feel so funny especially before bedtime.
December make me miss you like hell everyday...

Endless summer

2011-12-20T10:25:00.002+08:00

It's been a long day
I'm absolutely achin'
To lie down next to my girl
and tell her all about it.

Go back to the start

2011-12-16T20:25:00.004+08:00

Reminiscing all those days back then.
I used to love spring cleaning.
Especially cleaning the kitchen.
Cleaning all the dishes, bowls any kind of utensils you name it.
Looking at the detailed design on every single plate.
And how my mom will tell me where was it origins.
Moving on.....

Question of the day : Would you rather be smart or stupid?

Let the good times roll

2011-12-14T14:53:00.001+08:00

What we dream is all that matters.

CALL IT WHAT YOU WANT

2011-12-13T21:30:00.005+08:00

When we try to understand something, more often than not we kill it, and now i can feel the dangers of this encroaching on me : cynicism, bitterness, and infinite sadnes. You very quickly becomes good at being unlucky and unhappy. It's impossible to live if you're too aware, too thoughtful. - How i became stupid/ Martin Page

BRAIN FOOD

2011-12-12T22:30:00.000+08:00

PILLAR OF HOPE

2011-12-12T22:12:00.003+08:00

"Good things are worth the wait."
*self chant* lol
don't know how much longer i can do this.

Shortcut

2011-12-10T18:44:00.000+08:00

Demons

2011-12-08T21:13:00.002+08:00

Right.

I find no comfort in what my mind can't comprehend

G A P

2011-12-07T22:16:00.002+08:00

10 more mintues to 0830PM shows the clock on the wall.
Tick tick tick tick, the time slowly goes by.

Was over at my best friend's.
Doing what most girls are doing : Catching up, watching chick flicks, lazing around.
As i watched the time goes by, i felt somewhat bemused.
Bemused at our friendship. We haven't been talking much and yet we could still talk about anything in the world with no limits. It was so comfortable, lying right there. I wished the moment last forever. Never felt so happy in my life before.
The energy has been ongoing strong.

I hope you are reading this cheesecake.
I hope you have a safe trip to NZ and you enjoy yourself.
We might not be talking no more but you always have a special place in my heart.

Room mates

2011-12-06T20:22:00.002+08:00

Never a dull moment

2011-12-06T03:06:00.003+08:00

"Frown again"
":("
":("
.....
I looked so cute.

// Now's my turn to get up early for you, x

times like these.

2011-12-05T21:09:00.004+08:00

13 hours apart.
I miss you more, love.

THAT GOOD

2011-12-04T21:54:00.002+08:00

Love it all the time when you got me cracking up.
You got me high, niqqa.

Hallu, my name is Fool

2011-12-04T19:07:00.001+08:00

Nom nom nom nom nom

2011-12-03T12:53:00.001+08:00

The cold shoulder

2011-12-02T02:20:00.001+08:00

UTO PIA

2011-12-01T21:44:00.003+08:00

Great spy

2011-11-30T20:00:00.005+08:00

Thought of something while i'm in the train squeezing with the never-ending people trying to head to their destination early in the morning.

There i was stuck in the middle with all the people around. I admit i was bored and i started listening to every conversation that was available, looking at everyone. Then, it hit me.
It hit me that some things is so amazing. When i looked at the woman siting down with her hair neatly bun up, i thought about someone somewhere madly in love with her. And it's so amazing. Because, i guess we all have something that someone out there love.

Like when the phone call was abruptly ended, the indian man beside me waited for the woman to call again and smile to himself like an idiot.

Too good to be true

2011-11-27T15:32:00.002+08:00

I find no comfort in what my mind can't comprehend

Our diversion

2011-11-25T21:50:00.001+08:00

The world doesn't stop for your grief.

FORSAKEN

2011-11-19T23:58:00.001+08:00

"The devil grows inside the hearts of the selfish and wicked
White, brown, yellow and black colored is not restricted
You have a self destructive destiny when your inflicted
And you'll be one of gods children and fell from the top"

Reality

2011-11-19T23:54:00.002+08:00

♥♥♥

Can't turn back

2011-11-18T22:01:00.002+08:00

It's true. When i hear you guy's voices, i smile.

"Dance With The Devil"

[Verse 1]
I once knew a nigga whose real name was William
His primary concern, was making a million
Being the illest hustler, that the world ever seen
He used to fuck movie stars and sniff coke in his dreams
A corrupted young mind, at the age of thirteen
Nigga never had a father and his mom was a fiend
She put the pipe down, but every year she was sober
Her sons heart simultaneously grew colder
He started hanging out selling bags in the projects
Checking the young chicks, looking for hit and run prospects
He was fascinated by material objects
But he understood money never bought respect
He build a reputation 'cause he could hustle and steal
But got locked once and didn't hesitate to squeal
So criminals he chilled with didn't think he was real
You see me and niggas like this have never been equal
I don't project my insecurities at other people
He fiended for props like addicts with pipes and needles
So he felt he had to prove to everyone he was evil
A feeble-minded young man with infinite potential
The product of a ghetto breed capitalistic mental
Coincidentally dropped out of school to sell weed
Dancing with the devil, smoked until his eyes would bleed
But he was sick of selling trees and gave in to his greed

[Hook]
Everyone trying to be trife never face the consequences
You probably only did a month for minor offences
Ask a nigga doing life if he had another chance
But then again there's always the wicked that knew in advance
Dance forever with the devil on a cold cell block
But that's what happens when you rape, murder and sell rock
Devils used to be gods, angels that fell from the top
There's no diversity because we're burning in the melting pot

[Verse 2]
So Billy started robbing niggas, anything he could do
To get his respect back, in the eyes of his crew
Starting fights over little shit, up on the block
Stepped up to selling mothers and brothers the crack rock
Working overtime for making money for the crack spot
Hit the jackpot and wanted to move up to cocaine
fulfilling the scarface fantasy stuck in his brain
Tired of the block niggas treating him the same
He wanted to be major like the cut throats and the thugs
But when he tried to step to 'em, niggas showed him no love
They told him any motherfucking coward can sell drugs
Any bitch nigga with a gun, can bust slugs
Any nigga with a red shirt can front like a blood
Even Puffy smoked a motherfucker up in a club
But only a real thug can stab someone till they die
Standing in front of them, starring straight into their eyes
Billy realized that these men were well guarded
And they wanted to test him, before business started
Suggested raping a bitch to prove he was cold hearted
So now he had a choice between going back to his life
Or making money with made men, up in the cife
His dreams about cars and ice, made him agree
A hardcore nigga is all he ever wanted to be
And so he met them Friday night at a quarter to three

[Hook]

[Verse 3]
They drove around the projects slow while it was raining
Smoking blunts, drinking and joking for entertainment
Until they saw a woman on the street walking alone
Three in the morning, coming back from work, on her way home
And so they quietly got out the car and followed her
Walking through the projects, the darkness swallowed her
They wrapped her shirt around her head and knocked her onto the floor
This is it kid now you got your chance to be raw
So Billy oaked her up and grabbed the chick by the hair
And dragged her into a lobby that had nobody there
She struggled hard but they forced her to go up the stairs
They got to the roof and then held her down on the ground
Screaming shut the fuck up and stop moving around
The shirt covered her face, but she screamed and clawed
So Billy stomped on the bitch, until he had broken her jaw
The dirty bastards knew exactly what they were doing
They kicked her until they cracked her ribs and she stopped moving
Blood leaking through the cloth, she cried silently
And then they all proceeded to rape her violently
Billy was made to go first, but each of them took a turn
Ripping her up, and choking her until her throat burned
A broken jaw mumbled for guards but they weren't concerned
When they were done and she was lying bloody, broken and bruised
One of them niggas pulled out a brand new twenty-two
They told him that she was a witness of what she'd gone through
And if he killed her he was guaranteed a spot in the crew
He thought about it for a minute, she was practically dead
And so he leaned over and put the gun right to her head

[Sample from "Survival of the Fittest" by Mobb Deep]
I'm falling and I can't turn back
I'm falling and I can't turn back

[Verse 4]
Right before he pulled the trigger, and ended her life
He thought about the cocaine with the platinum and ice
And he felt strong standing along with his new brothers
Cocked the gat to her head, and pulled back the shirt cover
But what he saw made him start to cringe and stutter
Cause he was starring into the eyes of his own mother
She looked back at him and cried, cause he had forsaken her
She cried more painfully, than when they were raping her
His whole world stopped, he couldn't even contemplate
His corruption had successfully changed his fate
And he remembered how his mom used to come home late
Working hard for nothing, cause now what was he worth
He turned away from the woman that had once given him birth
And crying out to the sky cause he was lonely and scared
But only the devil responded, cause god wasn't there
And right then he knew what it was to be empty and cold
And so he jumped off the roof and died with no soul
They say death takes you to a better place but I doubt it
After that they killed his mother, and never spoke about it
And listen cause the story that I'm telling is true
Cause I was there with Billy Jacobs and I raped his mom too
And now the devil follows me everywhere that I go
In fact I'm sure he's standing among one of you at my shows
And every street cypher listening to little thugs flow
He could be standing right next to you, and you wouldn't know
The devil grows inside the hearts of the selfish and wicked
White, brown, yellow and black colored is not restricted
You have a self destructive destiny when your inflicted
And you'll be one of gods children and fell from the top
There's no diversity because we're burning in the melting pot
So when the devil wants to dance with you, you better say never
Because the dance with the devil might last you forever

//blank nut

2011-11-18T20:40:00.001+08:00

Lost it totally.

TOOKOOL4SKOOL

2011-11-16T20:01:00.000+08:00

SAME OLD DREADFUL ROUTINE

Paradise

2011-11-15T21:58:00.001+08:00

"A case of Flash delirium"

Cherrywhore

2011-11-14T20:39:00.002+08:00

There are times to stay put, and what you want will come to you, and there are times to go out into the world and find such a thing for yourself.
- Lemony Snicket

its a need.

Enter room.

2011-11-14T18:37:00.000+08:00

http://www.roomthebook.com/

For lovers

2011-11-13T21:20:00.003+08:00

This is the beginning for me to make you feel better.
This is the beginning of something, the starting.

I can only teach you the hard way...
Of making you feel better.

Hanging high

2011-11-13T13:40:00.004+08:00

What if the top things you want, contradicts each other?
Start listing the prons and cons.
You definitely wouldn't be able to come up with a choice.
Solution : ignore the whole shit, curl up into a ball, make the heartache go away and sleep

shotgun

2011-11-12T23:15:00.000+08:00

"Naive"

I'm not saying its your fault
Although you could have done more
Oh you're so naive yet so
How could this been done
By such a smiling sweetheart.
Ohh and your sweet and pretty face
In such an ugly world
Something so beautiful.
Ohh that every time I look inside

I know, she knows that i'm not fond of asking
True or false, it may be... Well, she's still out to get me.
And I know, she knows that i'm not fond of asking
True or false, it may be... She's still out to get me!

I may say it was your fault
Because i know you could have done more
Oh you're so naive yet so
How could this be done
By such a smiling sweetheart.
Ohh and your sweet and pretty face
In such an ugly world
Something so beautiful.
That every time I look inside

I know, she knows that i'm not fond of asking
True or false, it may be... Well, she's still out to get me.
And I know, she knows that i'm not fond of asking
True or false, it may be... She's still out to get me!

So how could this be done
By such a smiling sweetheart
You're so naive yet so
You're such an ugly thing
For someone so beautiful
That every time you're on his side

I know, she knows that i'm not fond of asking
True or false, it may be... Well, she's still out to get me.
And I know, she knows that i'm not fond of asking
True or false, it may be... She's still out to get me!

Just don't let me down
Just don't let me down
Hold on to your kite
Just don't let me down
Just don't let me down
Hold on to your kite
Just don't let me down
Just don't let me down
Hold on to this kite
Just don't let me down

lost love found here?

2011-11-12T21:35:00.003+08:00

Times have changed, so have i.

Honestly on the first day, i was numb, for real.
But after the second and the third day it was like, ok.
It didn't matter anymore.

Maybe this was what i wanted all along : Leaving you.

I'm coming to find you

2011-11-12T18:10:00.001+08:00

Take my heart

2011-11-11T11:11:00.001+08:00

11 November 2011

Top 11 things to do/ wants

Doing more spontaneous things
Travel
Try to eat all kinds of candy from all of the world.
See things more clearly
Take neoprints with everyone i love.
Spend some quiet time baking and baking and baking for the whole god damn day
Enjoy till like there's no tomorrow.
Everyone to be happy.
Indulge in everything
Today will be history.
I will remember it.

Falling in reverse says

2011-11-10T21:47:00.001+08:00

"I got these questions always running through my head
so many things that I would like to understand
if we are born to die and we all die to live
then whats the point of living life if it just contradicts?"

No wonder you like this band.

In the midst of the morning

2011-11-10T19:23:00.004+08:00

03.37AM

Boy : hahahaha people always leave
Boy 2 : really
Girl : Cuz they r idoits.
Boy : this make me feel better hahahaa
Girl : lol
Boy 2 :so when i go offline im an idoit
Boy 2 : ooooo
Girl : not use
Girl ::L
Boy 2 : its ok
Boy 2 : i understand
Boy 2 : you think im an imbesil
Girl : nope
Boy 2: A moron.
Girl : nope
Boy 2 : Dumbest mother fucker that ever lived.

P r e c i s e l y

Like you used to do.

2011-11-10T03:58:00.003+08:00

Forgive the lost

2011-11-10T02:19:00.003+08:00

So, i couldn't sleep.
What's new?
I'm starting to think that maybe we deserve all the things that caused us heartache.
What goes around comes around.
Scenario : You cancel your friends plan most of the time because you are too tired to head out.
One day you are going to be hit so badly that you feel like dying because your friends left you one by one because they think you are just a worthless piece of shit that isn't going to come out. Or the best part, you blame everyone else for not taking enough initiative to ask you out when you are being a little bitch by not going out.
Ha ha ha funny isn't it?
I'm not talking about anyone though.
Just a random thought that pop out.

Black hearts

2011-11-09T22:25:00.002+08:00

You know that feeling?
That
you are early and waiting for your friend
and the music is blasting out loud.
And you groove to the beats.
And you look around your surrounding.
The strong sunlight make you squint your eyes.
Train after train passed
and yet you sat down there
thinking about almost everything.
And you think that it felt good.
Maybe it didn't.
But it felt good at that moment because nobody could interrupt that little special moment of yours.

Someday we'll know

2011-11-09T13:10:00.001+08:00

N O S T A L G I A

All of a sudden I forget

2011-11-09T12:04:00.001+08:00

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And I can't stand you
Must everything you do make me wanna smile
Can I not like you for awhile?

The end of the world

2011-11-08T20:20:00.003+08:00

Mhmmmmmm. Indeed, wise.....

Hangover

2011-11-08T02:01:00.001+08:00

2am

At night every night
tossing turning sinking
Hours slip by.
Eyes open wide
Come so far and gone nowhere.
Losing track of days.
But it didn't matter because all are the same.

Make it right

2011-11-07T21:40:00.003+08:00

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. Hate it when you go off!

Gold trophy

2011-11-06T20:46:00.002+08:00

"When someone makes me feel the way this song does, I'll know that I've met the love of my life.

PinkHairMakesYaSweat 2 weeks ago 49 (Y)"

I like this song. Because it takes me to a place where i belong.

“For we walk by faith, not by sight.' II Corinthians 5:7”

2011-11-05T21:04:00.002+08:00

“Yes I am with you always, until the very end of time”

Now, i feel like Jesus. Literally.
Haha.

Where it all begins....

2011-11-05T16:00:00.000+08:00

The ship has sailed

2011-11-05T05:01:00.001+08:00

Another lonely night

2011-11-04T15:11:00.001+08:00

I leave you to your own destruction like sparking a fiend
'cause you got jealousy in you voice like star scream
and that's the primary reason that I hate you faggots

Technique chemically unstable, set to explode
foretold by the dead sea scrolls written in codes
so if your message ain't shit, fuck the records you sold
'cause if you go platinum, it's got nothing to do with luck
it just means that a million people are stupid as fuck
stuck in the underground in general and rose to the limit
without distribution managers, a deal, or a gimmick
Revolutionary Volume 2, murder the critics
and leave your fucking body rotten for the roaches and crickets

IMMORTAL TECHNIQUE : "Industrial Revolution"

Hooked

2011-11-03T01:42:00.001+08:00

2011-11-02T04:23:00.002+08:00

"Do not pray for easy live, pray to be stronger men."

Starting to like the idea of not getting enough sleep.
Maybe i was just getting used to it. Like how i am to your bullshits ;)

"I pity the fool"

2011-11-02T03:59:00.003+08:00

The best thing, though, in that museum was that everything always stayed right where it was. Nobody'd move. You could go there a hundred thousand times, and that Eskimo would still be just finished catching those two fish, the birds would still be on their way south, the deers would still be drinking out of that water hole, with their pretty antlers and their pretty, skinny legs, and that squaw with the naked bosom would still be wearing that same blanket. Nobody'd be different. The only thing that would be different would be you. Not that you'd be so much older or anything. It wouldn't be that, exactly. You'd just be different, that's all. - the catcher in the rye / J.D SALINGER

Cross your heart

2011-10-31T04:59:00.004+08:00

Something is so comforting about staying awake at such ungodly hour.
Maybe it was the silence. Maybe it was the book. Maybe it was the font in the book. Did you actually know, sometimes the font in the book intrigue me?

in SANITY

2011-10-29T23:04:00.002+08:00

Signs of struggle everywhere

The clue is cynic. And it's seven letters.
Yanling, i think.

The story ends

2011-10-29T18:57:00.001+08:00

•"What I was really hanging around for, I was trying to feel some kind of a good-by. I mean I've left schools and places I didn't even know I was leaving them. I hate that. I don't care if it's a sad good-by or a bad good-by, but when I leave a place I like to know I'm leaving it. If you don't, you feel even worse."
- J.D. Salinger, The Catcher in the Rye.

•"I don't even know what I was running for - I guess I just felt like it."
- J.D. Salinger, The Catcher in the Rye.

•"It was that kind of a crazy afternoon, terrifically cold, and no sun out or anything, and you felt like you were disappearing every time you crossed a road."
- J.D. Salinger, The Catcher in the Rye, Ch. 1

Reality vs DREAMS

2011-10-28T22:21:00.003+08:00

Ten reasons why i like rainy weather. (Or more)
1 the little ponds i had to cross
2 i can get cosy with my many pillows
3 i can enjoy my lovely soup with a book
4 my music seems to be even nicer
5 i can dream.
6 i can snuggle in my lovely coat
7 it makes me sleepy
8 so i can keep sleeping
9 ZZZzzzZzZZz
10 want u to be in my pocket

BAD ASS

2011-10-28T21:48:00.002+08:00

ARE YOU GONNA TAKE THIS GOLDEN OPPORTUNITY?

Own sweet time

2011-10-26T20:59:00.003+08:00

01 miss having chalets
02 crazy and wild nights
03 BRING BACK THOSE DAYS!
04 happy birthday R :)
05 feels like weekends today
06 little notes of letters
07 how to celebrate christmas?
08 expecting a little too much?
09 i luv
010 happy deepavali :)

Dancing in the moon light

2011-10-26T14:00:00.006+08:00

NEVER GETTING ENOUGH.

numb fuck

2011-10-25T21:54:00.003+08:00

01 i have exceed the number of post to blog today
02 i have to see you
03 COME AT ME BRO
04 sms me
05 make good decisions
06 miss my sogurt with rainbow sprinkles. Mhmmmmm.
07 wo0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0
08 Check yourself before you wreck yourself.
09 OH WAIT YOU ARE ALREADY WRECKED
010 dont stay

BA CK IT UP

2011-10-25T21:36:00.002+08:00

Hi! This might take a while for i munch on some oreos and laugh at how ridiculous the post is and grooving along to my all time favourites. I'm still going to say this even though you don't want to see or even listen to it. You fucking don't deserve anyone or everyone out there whom tried to lend their hand to save you from you wallowing in self-pity or fucking endless misery you brought to yourself.

"So shut up" , "Cb!" , "Fuck off" And all the fucking words that form when that mouth of yours open D I S G U S T me. HAHAHAHA. I, myself cannot even believe how amusing it is after reading this over and over again. You find million ways to let me down when i give you all till my legs gave out and yet i didn't stop trying. Don't tell me you know, you know and more you know(s) and give me that fucked innocent face of yours because you don't. If you do, things jolly well won't happen. Let me tell you this, this isn't considered harsh. Half the time, i wished you could read this word by word with tears flowing down. AGAIN, because fucking you in the face time and time isn't working at all. You may think i'm blabbering bullshit but i'm not. I've kept quiet for too long about you because i thought I FUCKING THOUGHT you would figured it out yourself but a pity, you were too dumb to realise. HAAHAHAH mother son of fucks.

What have you got to say for yourself?
Stop trying to cover up that dirty ass of yours.

So, i didn't say anything.
I just kept quiet and looked around. And i noticed things. The dots on the ceiling. Or how the blanket they gave me was rough. Or how the doctor's face looked rubbery. Or how everything was a deafening whisper, when he said that maybe i should start seeing a psychiatrist again. It was the first time a doctor ever told that to my parents with me in the room. And his coat was so white. And i was so tired.
-Perks of being a wallflower/ stephen chbosky

Teenage lust

2011-10-25T20:23:00.001+08:00

Let's all go back to the start.
It's for the best.

Sleep for days

2011-10-24T20:31:00.012+08:00

DETAILS.

A new chapter.

2011-10-22T21:11:00.003+08:00

January 25, 1992
Dear friend,
i feel great! I really mean it. I have to remember this for the next time i'm having a terrible week. Have you ever done that? You feel really bad, and then it goes away, and you don't why. I try to remind myself when i feel great like this that there will be another terrible week coming someday, so i should store up as many great details as i can, so during the next terrible week, i can remember those details and believe that i'll feel great again. It doesn't work a lot, but i think it's very important to try -perks of being a wallflower/ stephen chbosky

Wander lust

2011-10-21T21:31:00.003+08:00

"It sucks to be hurt by what yanling said especially, when you know its true."

Imagine you got a little brother who always think that there's monsters living under the bed. Very often, he would run out of the room, screams and starts crying waking everyone up in the middle of the night. As a elder siblings, you are sick and tired of this shit happening. And one day you decided that you want to put an end to it.

So, you decided to camp outside his room. And that very night, your brother woke up and went insane and start running into your parent's room but was tripped because you was camping outside. Then you pushed him to the corner and said this, "THERE ISN'T ANY MONSTERS, IF THERE IS THEY WOULD PROBABLY COME TO ME FIRST BECAUSE I WAS OUTSIDE. GET THIS AND HEAD TO BED NOW. YOU'RE ABSOLUTELY SAFE." With that your little brother head to bed and after the following days, everyone in the house had peace and a night good sleep.

Moral of the story? Deep down, we are all selfish. Because, we wanted to have a good sleep and we are sick and tired of having stupid screams and cries not allowing everyone to sleep that is why we do something about it.

ha ha ha ha.

Windy

2011-10-20T21:31:00.004+08:00

we have got the swag!!!!
There's more character change but im lazy to screen shot

Wild hearts can't be broken

2011-10-19T22:09:00.002+08:00

"Morning class."
"MORNINGGGGGG MS TOH"
Before siting down, two little girls whispered, "god bless you" and giggle giggle then sit down.

Some things are hard to write about. After something happens to you, you go to write it down, and either you over dramatize it, or underplay it, exaggerate the wrong parts or ignore the important ones. At any rate, you never write it quite the way you want to.
- Sylvia Plath

:')

The way i roll

2011-10-19T20:11:00.003+08:00

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

Yohoho and a bottle of rum

2011-10-18T21:05:00.004+08:00

I like my toast with some butter and sugar!!!
Ok more sugar and rainbow sprinkles and chocolate rice and nutella and...... and a nice cup of melk tea :')

She sell sea shells on the sea shore

2011-10-18T17:55:00.002+08:00

"We're like pillars of ur life. U know we got ur back in anything"

I guess i've been lucky to have you guys :')